Friday, June 20, 2014

New beginning part 2

In case you all were wondering why we moved in the first place, here's a very nondescript and vague overview: Benjamin's mom and her husband husband were being very hostile and inappropriate towards us, so we moved away from them and will not be in their company for the foreseeable future. Benjamin doesn't want either his mom or step-dad to be a part of Charles-Winston's or his own life anymore, and I'm respecting that because of the behavior I witnessed.
     It was a very tragic thing for me to be a part of - the splitting of a family, especially because family is so important to me - but it's what's best for Benjamin and therefore best for my little family.



     Our starting over has been a very educational experience, and has helped us grow closer as a family. The first day was really rough but Charles-Winston helped Benjamin and I stay calm. As weird as it seems, Charles-Winston is my rock, his attitude and presence is what helps me hold it together when I want to cry. He also helps me stand up for myself because now I have someone to protect, I have to look out for him and do things I normally wouldn't do. This time I've included a few videos of Charles-Winston because only the essence of his humor can be captured in a single frame.

All the small things

Charles-Winston is winded from our earlier play-time session, and is now sleeping. I cherish every moment I get with that sweet, sweet baby, but some of my favorite times we share are the first few minutes after he's woken up from a good nap and he smiles at me with those big greenish-blue eyes, he's happy and peaceful. Right now I can hear him in the other room laughing with his dad, his ear-piercing scream-like laughter is my favorite sound, his chatty attitude is the only thing I smile for some mornings. When he takes a nap and I fall asleep holding him, when he starts to make a new noise, or tries a new trick. There are many things I'd like to think I need, but it's moments like those I know I couldn't live without.